Broken & Beautiful

Over the weekend I had the opportunity to attend Communion at Church. When I arrived I wasn't sure why I was there after a busy day at an adoption conference. My mind still hadn't slowed down from the emotions of speaking in front of a group of people.  Adoption is a topic I love to talk about but, it sometimes brings painful reminders that my dreams of adopting have been put on hold for so many years. As I prayed at the beginning of the service I told God how broken I felt and pleaded with Him to give me what He knew I needed not what I thought I needed. I shed a few tears when it was mentioned that at Communion last year Zach shared a final message with the church (not sure why I hadn't thought of that fact before I arrived). Tears feel again when we sang "It is Well" at the end and I was thankful to have Erin Drayer sitting beside me to give me a hug and reflect on how hard it is to watch your husband suffering. God was faithful in providing tears to wash away some of the pain and when it was all over I found myself able to smile and laugh again. The phrase "Broken and Beautiful" came to mind at some point during the evening and I listened to "Broken and Beautiful by Mark Schultz when I got home. So good to be reminded how much God treasures us completely surrendering all the broken pieces of our lives to Him so He can provide true healing. The circumstances of my life may have left me feeling broken, but I serve a God who can heal my brokenness and use it for His glory.